body is the planet

Namaskaram.

I had to spend every day at my apartment after having a serious fall in Iceland. Daylight in Akureyri was shorter than in Reykjavik. Time seemed to stand still. Could’t tell if it was day or night, and it felt like I was living in a snow cave.

I went for a walk outside at 10:00 p.m. and made my way down to the shore by moving carefully on the snow. The stores closed at 6 p.m. but never turned off the lights. The city was empty, despite the impression that it never slept.

It turned out that the same person in a different location might be very different.

I lived near the sea in Turkiye and spent every day watching the sunrise and sunset. It’s like I was in love with everything; every tiny moment sent waves through my heart, stirring up an urge to express myself. 

In the north of Iceland, on the other hand, I became obsessed with the long nights, and my body and mind were becoming less active. For some reason, I often wanted to listen to piano music over there and would lie peacefully for hours before going to bed.

Perhaps because there were fewer humans, the body could better synchronize with the Earth. When volcanoes erupted and the aurora appeared, I could sense invisible changes half a day in advance. I became extremely exhausted for no apparent reason and ached all over my body, so all I could do was curl up in my cave like a little beast.

A friend sent me photos of the aurora and advised me to leave the house as soon as possible to view it. By the time I got over my uneasiness and opened my eyes to view the message on my phone, the aurora had vanished.

I didn’t see it, but I felt it all over my body. The aurora wasn’t a changing color for me, it was a full-body ache.

Never before have I felt so strongly that I am part of the earth. The body is the planet, with rivers and soil, lava and air. Through this body, I can reach the universe, reach the endless stars.

我在冰岛那一跤摔得不轻，因此后来只能每天待在公寓。阿克雷里的日照比雷克雅未克更短，时间仿佛停滞，分不清白天还是黑夜，感觉自己住在雪洞。
商店下午六点就打烊，却从来不关灯。半夜十点出门散步，在雪地里很慢很慢地走到海边。从一个个橱窗前经过，看似不眠城，实际上空无一人。

原来同一个人在不同的土地上竟会区别如此之大。
住在土耳其的海边，每天不厌其烦追逐日出和日落。宛如和万物恋爱一般，任何微小的瞬间都在心上荡开一圈圈涟漪，激起无尽的表达欲，
而在冰岛北部，痴迷于漫长的黑夜，同时明显感受到身体的惰性增加，思维也不那么活跃。在那边不知为何经常想听钢琴曲，睡前会在钢琴声里静静躺上几个小时。

或许由于人类较少，身体更容易和地球同步。火山喷发和极光爆发的时候，我提前半天就感应到眼睛不可见的变化，没来由地极度疲惫，甚至浑身疼痛，只能像个小兽在山洞里蜷缩起来。
雷克雅未克认识的朋友给我发来极光的照片，让我快点出门去看。而等我从不适中恢复，睁开眼看到手机消息，极光已经消失。
视觉上没有看到，可是全身都感受到了。极光对我来说不是变幻的颜色，而全身的疼。
从未如此强烈感受到我是地球的一部分。身体是行星，有河流与土壤，熔岩与空气。通过这具身体，抵达宇宙，抵达无尽星辰。